Body suit: Thrift find, Disco Pants: American Apparel, Hat: H&M, Wedges: F21, Earrings: Artisan Made, Lipstick: MAC
Jacket: Vintage, Pants: American Apparel, Bandeau: Urban Outfitters, Necklace: Old Navy, Sneakers: ALDO, Sunnies: Marcellas Boutique Denver, Lipstick: MAC
Dress: Outdoor Vendors in Miami, Denim dress: Thrift find, Cap: Thrift find, Booties: ALDO, Chocker: Self-made, Bangles: Passage to India Miami, Lipstick: MAC
I’ve been stuck in mud these past couple of days trying to figure out how to keep moving forward so I haven’t been able to bring myself to write something positive and inspiring, but then I realized that what Olivia wrote and how she and Alex posed and modeled for me is an inspiration all on its own. I mean just the very fact that I’m finding women that want to put themselves out there in front of the camera in clothes they wouldn’t normally wear. I mean I do have a very quirky fashion sense that not everyone usually prances around in. That reminded me that I must carry on and continue trying to find ways to keep my spirits lifted and my foot in front of the other.
For this shoot was thinking colors and prints galore. With prints I went with everything from polka dots, to zig-zags, to funky 80s print and with colors I wanted vibrant colors and mix and match between cool and warm colors. I always love working with black and white and incorporating a pop of color and so that’s what I did with Alex’s outfit. Each outfit could easily have been worn in the 70s, 80s, and 90s. I’m telling you I’m a sucker for vintage clothing from past generations. I will not let them rest. It’s a revival baby!!
Alex sports a black and white polka-dotted body suit that hugs her body beautifully and flaunts her upper lady parts. I wanted something completely body con so as bottoms I went with some disco pants that hugged her body much like the leotard. The details included a Charlie Chaplin black top hat, black and white dangly earrings and shiny black wedges, which were very easy to strut in by the way. Isn’t it lovely when you can add a couple of inches still in comfort?
Olivia’s outfit was very funky 80s girl inspired. She brought that multi-colored jacket for me to style so I went with purple riding pants and an orange bandeau and sunnies that all matched those same colors on her jacket. To keep it casual I went with platform sneakers. Her hair is so new age cool girl, which totally added an edge to the ensemble.
I put myself in a very stretchy and brightly colored dress I bought at a boutique in Miami and paired it with a button up denim dress that I left open to make it appear as a long vest. To go in line with the red of the dress I added a shiny Mario Bros looking cap and suede red booties. Keeping in that 90s spirit I went with a black choker and some bangles.
“Everyone has their own tips and theories on achieving a stable recovery, here’s my advice: Capture YOUR moments. What I mean by this is that it’s easy to lose ourselves in the vast sea of negative thoughts, especially those about ourselves, but we will always (regardless of frequency) have those moments of clarity of who we are or what we truly want in our lives. When these moments do occur, you capture them! Whether it be written, recorded, taken in a photo, told in a story, etc. It doesn’t matter how you capture it, so long as you have it.
I’ll admit I don’t have these epiphany moments as often as I’d like, but I’ve learned to catch hold of them when they do come. They serve as reminders of my love for My Life and aspirations. This photo project with Juanna, I’m grateful to say, has become one of those moments. For me, this shoot started out as fashion fun and ended with a deeper reflection of my yearning to build my self-confidence and self- esteem, which I daresay have felt hazardously low.
It was a wonderful experience to step out of myself and into someone else’s stylistic vision. Juanna’s room was a fashion wonderland and I’ve never really tried the types of outfits and makeup she dressed me in. But I loved it! Initially it was a little strange because these clothes and makeup were practically foreign to me and I felt a tinge insecure about how I looked. But after looking at the photos of myself as well as in collaboration with the other chicks (Alex & Juanna) I was thrilled to see how great the set came out. It felt empowering to be able to see myself rock out an outfit I would never even think to try out, and I feel less anxious about taking a bold step to broaden my horizons in personal appearance and style. It’s something I feel I need to do for myself and my confidence, and this photo experience just further solidified that drive in me.
Overall, the experiencing was liberating and soothing to my esteem. I learned that to successfully rock it on the outside you have to show love to your inner side, and self-transformation isn’t going to be comfortable and easy. But what I’ve learned is that it’s always possible and more importantly, there will always be others who empathize and support you. I try to count my blessings as best as I can, and I can honestly say this experience with Juanna was one of them :) Thank you.”
- Olivia Wozniak